Tag Archives: #babyloss

I am Sacred

It’s here! The Sacred Project Film has finally been released. To borrow the words of my friend at The Tangerine Owl Project: “The word Inspiration quite frankly feels like an understatement….. this is a visual dialogue on just how many of us … Continue reading

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In memory; remembering

Today on Facebook, I finally posted the above picture from Carly Marie, and said: “October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Month. So if you would this weekend, please remember our son Anderson. Speak his name or write it down, … Continue reading

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This time around, or, now

Before: I tried to rein in my hopes. When we were first trying to conceive Ander, I was the killjoy, the “remember our odds are only 25% each time,” the “we’ll see.” For the first ten weeks, I was the … Continue reading

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I carry him in my heart

I am participating in Carly Marie’s Capture Your Grief project, but I’ll admit it – while I want to participate daily, I just don’t know if I have the time or the memory; I’ll do what I can. Today (or … Continue reading

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Coke made me cry

I’m a sucker for schmaltzy. I get teary at the start of Broadway musicals when the orchestra swells; I am the person Hallmark commercials are targeted at. My eyes brim at moment of beauty. I simply can’t control it. I’m … Continue reading

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Sitting in the closet

“Sitting deep in the heart of Organ Cave, I let this sink in: new life starts in the dark. Whether it is a seed in the ground, a baby in the womb or Jesus in the tomb, it starts in the dark.” – Barbara … Continue reading

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Mothers helping mothers

By the time Ander died, I had been pumping milk for 26 days and nights. The NICU stored it for me in their giant freezers, for my baby, who would never get past cotton swabs and 1 ml drips. Fortunately, … Continue reading

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Forget the future

This morning I awoke at 5 a.m. due to a massive rainstorm, and sprang out of bed because I remembered we had left the living room bay windows open. This is only a problem if it’s rainy and windy, but … Continue reading

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Cesarean mothers are BRAVE

My wonderful wife, K, sent this to me today. And it made me feel better. As a mom who never wanted a c-section, but now will never give birth vaginally, it was nice to hear this.

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Unplug

As this week bleeds into Labor Day weekend in the U.S., and I head out for another camping weekend, I turn back to Barbara Brown Taylor’s third piece of advice for becoming comfortable in the darkness: Unplug. Unplug all your … Continue reading

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