Tag Archives: #pregnancy

Something that still rankles

Most days now, I have my anger under control. Anger, as babyloss moms know, is probably the last grief manifestation to leave: anger at the helplessness, the unfairness, at others who seem to get and stay pregnant so easily. Some … Continue reading

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In memory; remembering

Today on Facebook, I finally posted the above picture from Carly Marie, and said: “October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Month. So if you would this weekend, please remember our son Anderson. Speak his name or write it down, … Continue reading

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This time around, or, now

Before: I tried to rein in my hopes. When we were first trying to conceive Ander, I was the killjoy, the “remember our odds are only 25% each time,” the “we’ll see.” For the first ten weeks, I was the … Continue reading

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Coke made me cry

I’m a sucker for schmaltzy. I get teary at the start of Broadway musicals when the orchestra swells; I am the person Hallmark commercials are targeted at. My eyes brim at moment of beauty. I simply can’t control it. I’m … Continue reading

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Reckless

Over the past month, K and I have been preparing to start trying to conceive again. During that process, we’ve had to balance a lot of “what ifs” and medical advice. The simple fact is, no one knows why I … Continue reading

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Two extremes

I just returned from a nearly three week vacation to the East Coast, so I’m both behind on posting and yet have so much I want to share with you all, about Ander’s memorial service, about how I’m working on … Continue reading

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“I had a preemie too!”

Today’s medical advances mean that babies born prematurely are much more likely to survive. Time magazine’s recent cover story, “Saving Preemies,” which I’m not linking to because the first thing you’ll see is a very triggery picture of a small … Continue reading

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