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Monthly Archives: July 2014
Two extremes
I just returned from a nearly three week vacation to the East Coast, so I’m both behind on posting and yet have so much I want to share with you all, about Ander’s memorial service, about how I’m working on … Continue reading
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Tagged #babyloss, #friends, #grief, #loss, #pregnancy, #sensitive
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Fake it ’til you make it
You know you’re not alone when you realize that the post you have running through your head while you’re out, literally, running, is on the same theme that four of your babyloss friends have also just wrote about. M and L and … Continue reading
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Why do we not want to move on?
I think, based on the title of this post, you’re going to think I’m going a different place than I’m going. This is not a post about reluctance, but about intentional resistance. In the words of an old cliche, if … Continue reading
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10 (Non-grief) things about me
In prior posts, I have contemplated my post-babyloss identity. Today, inspired by Carly-Marie’s Link-Up post on Still Standing, here are 10 things about who I am apart from a grieving, babyloss mama. 1. What is your favorite food? Chocolate chip … Continue reading
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Tagged #10things, #babyloss, #books, #carly marie, #chicago, #garden, #grief, #hobbies, #knitting, #movies, #pancakes, #still standing
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When, not If
This post is a preemptive defense, against what, I’m not sure. Perhaps against life itself. Going forward, I will be referring to subsequent pregnancies as “when” events instead of “if” events. For example: “When I’m next pregnant…” instead of “If … Continue reading
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When “she” is pregnant
Today, I was going to write about hope, and about staying positive in the face of despair, fear and anxiety. And then I found out that she was pregnant. I have mixed reactions to peoples’ pregnancies, and often I cannot … Continue reading
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Tagged #anger, #babyloss, #bfp, #infertile, #jealousy, #pregnant, #rage
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Charting tips for newbies
I recognize that a trying-to-conceive (TTC) post on a blog about babyloss might be a trigger for some, but I felt compelled to share what I’ve learned over the past year and a half about charting. I’ll try to keep … Continue reading
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Tagged #basal body temperature, #bbt, #cervical mucus, #charting, #clomid, #cwhc, #loss, #opk, #ovulation, #ttc
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Jumps and jitters
(Warning: lots of TMI in here about bodily fluids and such.) Thirteen days ago, when I began my last period, we officially started trying to conceive again. Sort of. Our fertility doctor requires three full months of post-pregnancy charting, and … Continue reading
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Some days, I have hope
Last week was rough. Saturday was the worst, bringing tears and despair, revealing my darkest fears to K while we lay on our backs in a tent during a rainstorm, waiting for the clouds to blow past before making dinner of … Continue reading
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