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Monthly Archives: October 2014
Hiatus
Hey all, I’ve been mired in some blues lately. Right after being told we could TTC again, I started having problems. Severe pelvic pain, heavy bleeding between periods, bloating, low-grade fever, headaches. I’ve seen the doctor, had an ultrasound, and … Continue reading
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11, 14, 15; Altar, Light, Community
On October 15, at 7 p.m. Chicago time, my candle was blazing with thousands of others around the world, as we joined the Wave of Light to celebrate the lives of our lost children. The light blazed on our altar … Continue reading
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Tagged #altar, #candle, #captureyourgrief, #community, #hope, #light, #mother, #pail, #pumpkin, #waveoflight
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The music of the season (days 12 and 13)
In my mind, the music and the season are inextricably linked. Already on bed rest, I dragged my exhausted body up on December 24th to put on a pretty dress that I’d been wanting to wear but hadn’t had the … Continue reading
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Tagged #baby, #captureyourgrief, #carols, #christmas, #dancing, #december, #january, #jazz, #music, #salsa, #snow, #snowflake, #winter
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In memory; remembering
Today on Facebook, I finally posted the above picture from Carly Marie, and said: “October is Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Month. So if you would this weekend, please remember our son Anderson. Speak his name or write it down, … Continue reading
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Tagged #babyloss, #captureyourgrief, #infant, #loss, #memoriam, #memory, #pregnancy, #remembrance
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This time around, or, now
Before: I tried to rein in my hopes. When we were first trying to conceive Ander, I was the killjoy, the “remember our odds are only 25% each time,” the “we’ll see.” For the first ten weeks, I was the … Continue reading
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I carry him in my heart
I am participating in Carly Marie’s Capture Your Grief project, but I’ll admit it – while I want to participate daily, I just don’t know if I have the time or the memory; I’ll do what I can. Today (or … Continue reading
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