Monthly Archives: September 2014

I sat in the closet…

… and it WORKED! I know, you’re thinking: it was a self-fulfilling prophecy. Okay, so maybe a little? But let me start from the beginning. I was in a Mood. You know what it’s like. A “life is horrible, I … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | 1 Comment

It would have worked out perfectly…

If Ander had been born at term, this past April, instead of at 24 weeks in the cold of January… … K would be bringing a one-year-old to her 10-year college reunion in May, showing him off. Instead, we’re hoping … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | 9 Comments

Coke made me cry

I’m a sucker for schmaltzy. I get teary at the start of Broadway musicals when the orchestra swells; I am the person Hallmark commercials are targeted at. My eyes brim at moment of beauty. I simply can’t control it. I’m … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , | 7 Comments

Sitting in the closet

“Sitting deep in the heart of Organ Cave, I let this sink in: new life starts in the dark. Whether it is a seed in the ground, a baby in the womb or Jesus in the tomb, it starts in the dark.” – Barbara … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Mothers helping mothers

By the time Ander died, I had been pumping milk for 26 days and nights. The NICU stored it for me in their giant freezers, for my baby, who would never get past cotton swabs and 1 ml drips. Fortunately, … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , , , , | 4 Comments

Forget the future

This morning I awoke at 5 a.m. due to a massive rainstorm, and sprang out of bed because I remembered we had left the living room bay windows open. This is only a problem if it’s rainy and windy, but … Continue reading

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged , , | 2 Comments

Cesarean mothers are BRAVE

My wonderful wife, K, sent this to me today. And it made me feel better. As a mom who never wanted a c-section, but now will never give birth vaginally, it was nice to hear this.

Posted in Uncategorized | Tagged , , , , , | 10 Comments